The saying is “You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone”
Now more than ever, that saying has never been more prevalent. Hold me like you love me, Hold me like you want me (as in want me there). What I am basically trying to say here is even as someone with autism who often doesn’t like too much intimacy, apart from those I deeply love or are connected too so to speak. Those who know me will understand more what I mean by that. But even someone like myself would give anything to see those who I care about, Friends (something I never knew the concept of as my blog post showed) to hug them and them to know how I feel. To hold them like I love them. Family, even the staff at the service I attend. To say to them sorry for taking you for granted. For me to hold them, and that to show that more than words ever could. “To hold me like you love me”
Staring at the bed where you once laid. Having personal experience of illness, both with myself and those I love; I’ve often done this. How things can change in the blink of an eye. Someone can be sat next to you, in the same room as you, and in the blink of an eye it can change. You end up staring at the bed where they were once lay only 12 hours previously. Start thinking about all those things they ever said to you. All those things you wish you’d said to them.
Often it’s the tragedy that brings it home to people. We realise that all the petty arguments, all the times we argued about trivial things. At that time they seemed very important. Oh people who put milk in first should be shot! But, we even miss those arguments. It has always amazed me being someone who has unfortunately had experience of illness, how much you even miss the arguments!
So, in this time more than ever, if you are fortunate to be near the ones you love. Hold them, tell them you love them, tell them how much they mean to you, as you never know what can happen.
And, to those who are not close to those they love. A message of hope, when all this is over and we see them again, Hold them like you love them, hold them like you want them. Appreciate them; who you’ve got, what you’ve got and how special they are to you.
Autistic Artist 